I know there are lots of posts floating around at the moment reflecting on 2019. This isn’t one of them. I don’t want to look back on 2019 if I can help it. It was an awful year. Yes, I have learnt a lot from the trials of it but the sooner I embrace the new year the sooner I can move forward.
One thing I will say about last year is it has really made me focus on what I want to achieve rather than what I need to achieve. You may not see the difference, but there is a huge one.
For a long time, I have made sure everyone else’s needs have been met before mine. As a mother, this is part of the role, but it shouldn’t be at the expense of our own sanity. Self-care is such an important part of our lives, especially as mums and finding time to look after ourselves as well as others can come a long way down the line.
So, looking forward this year I am putting my needs as high up on the list as everyone else’s. Now, it will definitely be a learning curve, it won’t always go well but it is important that we realise that as women we deserve as much time for ourselves as anyone else does.
I recently went for my yearly tarot reading. This is a tradition I started last year. I have always felt the universe had my back. I’m not religious but I always knew that someone or something was out there guiding me. This may sound like nonsense to you and you’re entitled to this opinion, but I truly believe that there is something out there guiding our decisions.
Last year I didn’t go into the reading with any questions, big mistake but again something I learned from. I didn’t expect anything from that reading and after never really gave it another thought until something happened in November. It reminded me of something the lady said during my reading.
Upon reflection of the reading I had early February, many of the things hinted at in the cards had actually come true. I wanted to see what the new year had in store for me (I know its only a guide but it’s nice to have a heads up isn’t it). So, I booked in for a yearly overview session and this is what spurred on the idea of putting my needs at the same point as everyone else’s.
I will go into the tarot reading more in another post, but for this one, I just wanted to touch on the subject as it is instrumental to the decisions I am sharing.
Word of the Year
I usually have a word I use for the year. Sometimes I share it on a blog post or in a social media post but I don’t think I did last year. This year I have decided on a word that was spoken to me during the reading. It seems fitting for a year focused on my own wellbeing. Now, when I write that word there, I feel guilty. I feel that I’m going to neglect those around me by focusing some time on myself. That’s wrong but that’s how society has got us thinking about our roles as women.
I digress. Anyway, my word for 2020 is CHANGE.
There are going to be a lot of changes happening over this new year, the first one is a new job. I’ve been self-employed for nearly 10 years, mainly to fit in around the family. But I have a new full-time job starting hopefully at the end of January.
I will still be blogging but I hope that having a regular income will allow me to create content I want to create rather than what the money dictates.
I’m not great with change, but I know I need to embrace change with open arms for better things to come into my life. SO this is me, opening my arms wide and embracing the changes coming my way.
Here’s to an amazing 2020, full of change and purpose…